Depression

Honestly, I think every person on this earth is depressed. Some people are really good at dealing with it and others are not.
People get drunk because they can't deal and then laugh it off as a fun weekend activity although it wasn't fun and it wasted their rent money and they don't even remember half of what happened.
They cut because visualizing the pain inside calms them, shows them that the pain that they feel is real.
Some people find comfort in talking about it to friends or a counselor or a family member, speaking of their feelings as if they feel that they're the only one who is struggling and how hard it is for them to get through it all... talking about how unhappy they are and how the challenges in their lives just make their lives seem worse and worse.
Some cry themselves to sleep while smiling throughout the day for they view their emotional state as weak and do not wish it to be expressed.
Some constantly bring it up and talk about it, trying to make themselves seem special for having a weak emotional capacity.
They make others laugh because they lost the ability to.
They love the world the way that they wished the world loved them but often doesn't and others call them kind for it, not understanding the intent.
The point is, we all get through differently.

But that doesn't mean it makes you unique or special or different.
It does not mean that you can opt out of life or use it as justification for failing to perform.
Your life is in your hands and you cannot let your emotional state dictate what you are capable of.
Take responsibility for your actions, strive to be better than what you believe you can be.
And for goodness sakes, stop looking for pity.